“Suicide isn’t logical,” J. told me, matter-of-factly, in a recent session. I was sitting on the comfy couch in his office, sinking into its cushions, flabbergasted he would...

Come Boldly to the Throne of Grace, Even If You Panic

A few years ago—February 11, 2019, to be exact—I tried to kill myself with sleeping pills on a lazy afternoon. Obviously, it didn’t work. I fell asleep, not wanting or...

My Honest Conversation with Michael Patton About Wanting to Die

An Honest and Vulnerable Prayer God, please kill me. This is a prayer I prayed with tears in my eyes for two and a half hours early Monday morning. Please. I will never ask...

Hope in Lamenting: When Life Has No Easy Answers

Sometimes, there’s no easy answer—or an answer at all!—for life’s hardest questions, especially for a Christian. I doubt no one really wants to know the reason...

by Rulonda JaBrey

Doubt

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When We Misinterpret God

There have been times, too numerous to count, when I went one way, suspecting the Lord was heading in the same direction, only to find out the heart-breaking reality that God...

by C Michael Patton

The Danger of Romanticizing Suicide

Come Boldly to the Throne of Grace, Even If You Panic

My Honest Conversation with Michael Patton About Wanting to Die

Hope in Lamenting: When Life Has No Easy Answers

When We Misinterpret God